The heartbreaking reason Professor Green and Millie Mackintosh's family plans are on hold
The rapper married the Made In Chelsea star two years ago - but they are putting off starting a family
Married for two years, Professor Green and Millie Mackintosh must be fed up of hearing 'So, when do you think you'll have kids?'
And now the British rapper has revealed why they're putting off starting a family – because he's still trying to come to terms with his dad's suicide seven years ago.
The 31-year-old has struggled with depression since his dad killed himself at just 43, and is now seeing a psychotherapist.
"I think there’s a genetic link with depression and suicide," Pro Green, whose real name is Stephen Manderson, said. "My dad did it and his brother did it.
"I haven’t yet had suicidal thoughts although there have been a lot of dark, difficult days over the years.
"I felt it was right to take precautions by going to therapy and trying to fix myself, because – being happily married – children are the next logical step. But I can’t escape the fact that I am a product of my dad and I don’t want to pass this on."
Professor Green's mum was just 16 when she had him and his dad was "in and out" of his life, he told the Guardian earlier this year. He was raised by his maternal nan Patricia.
"I remember when my nan came into my room crying and told me that my dad had hanged himself," he said. "I punched the wall and this anger came over me, followed by confusion and then wondering what had been so bad that he had to take his own life."
Professor Green has made a documentary called Suicide And Me that will air on BBC3 on October 27 at 9pm.
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